Saturday, June 02, 2007

assassins vs. glaciers

I wish I could but I canít. I wish it was easy but itís not. send the assassins and letís be done with it.

And I, will stand aside. cold ice beneath me. I can run and slide and fall breathless beside you. but I will always return. to my home. and you yours. you belong. and I keep dragging myself along. asking for whyís. expecting explanations when the answers are in what has not been given. the answers are what has not been said. and I wonít see I wonít see. I canít hear. I wonít listen. you canít make me. so I falter.

I have the happiest most blessed synchronistic day EVER in like FOREVER and then I come home to sit in silence and feel into the heart which is the one place longing and lacking its moment of happiness. and I fear it Ďs what fuels me. I fear itís what keeps everything else in my life moving. because if I were able to give this love away it would take away everything that I love. and I still canít tell if itís worth it. but itís all that I can see.

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