Saturday, November 27, 2004

brrrrrrr argh argh

i'm in colorado for thanksgiving. there has been snow and chill...lots of coffee and reading. i can't seem to get anything done but i'm learnign to let go of that. looking forward to playing a few shows in december and then finally settling again, getting an apartment and working on my portfolio so i can go back to school. if only i could decide which coast to stay on...
darkness has settled onto my skin. not in a morbid depressing way but in a rainclouds are approaching way. i need some serious alone time and i'm not seeing it in my future since i don't have a pad to call 'home'. so...i suppose i will just have to scratch the surface and keep treading water. and let love slip by again.
nothing much to report. i'm still hibernating in my own way and just might forever or so it feels...looking forward to heading back to sf in a week, i miss so many of you! until then. stay warm.


Wednesday, November 17, 2004


where to even begin. i haven't had a fast internet connection in a long while and thus my lack of motivation to upload pics and review my'll come just you wait
today i would just like to say happy birthday jeff buckley...we're not doing a tribute show for you today but your memory and meaning still lives in our hearts. your music is still heard...and we still love you! xoxoxoxoxo.

freedom is perhaps the most important word to me these days. i feel its meaning in a more profound way than ever before and deeper than i can explain. there are no more rules for me. there are no more expectations. there is only action and movement and words and they reveal everything and nothing at all. i know i will be going back to school/design program soon and that excites me. i have accepted a show at the derby in los angeles which warms my heart. i was set to play a show in LA by the end of the year and is happening! i've been in so cal a week now...spending time with my friends, touching love and letting it go again...hanging with my sister and my mother...working on websites and reading. i'm heading to colorado for a week for thanksgiving then i am playing shows in san francisco and los angeles then i head back to new york for a bit. i'm hoping to play a show, work a little, hang out with jessica and check out the schools there. i love that my options are sf or nyc. the only two places i'd ever consider living right now. technically i live no where and i love that feeling. it keeps me on my feet and keeps me moving. and i know soon i'll be settled into one city again...or will i?

i know this isn't much of an update but it's all i can give at the moment so take it :)
if you are reading this today, november 17th, 2004, do something for me and listen to a jeff buckley song...take a deep breath and smile. today may there be freedom for everyone...however you may need it.